When Faith Meets Pain: A Story of Healing and Hope

By Juline Edmond

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A Year of Intentional Singleness

At 24, I was in a season of learning—getting closer to God and simply living. Before stepping into this “life-changing” mindset, I had decided not to date or explore for a whole year because I was sick and tired of heartbreak.

Then, a full year later, I met my now-husband—not realizing at all that he would become my husband. Honestly, I just wanted him to be a fling, a moment, because I was still learning what I wanted in a person… plus, I was afraid of the unknown.

From Fling to Forever

Fast forward: we started dating and made it official. Trust me when I say that God had already shown me, a few months prior, that he was going to be my husband.

Surprise and Shock: An Unexpected Pregnancy

At 25, we were doing—you know—grown people things, and sure enough, I got pregnant. I know it might seem crazy when women are shocked to find out they’re pregnant, but it’s real. In my case, I genuinely didn’t think I could get pregnant. I had been taking risks all this time and nothing had ever happened, so I just assumed I couldn’t.

Fast forward through the process of telling my family—my parents were, of course, disappointed—the church gave me ultimatums, and all that. Then on February 24, 2016, I went through one of the hardest moments of my life… I lost my daughter at six months pregnant. The pain was unlike anything I had ever experienced.

Grieving and Questioning God

Around that time, I asked God:

“Is this a punishment?”

“What did I do wrong?”

“I thought I was safe after three months…”

So many questions, but not enough answers.

Heartbroken, to say the least.

But God…

But I didn’t stay in those thoughts—because I felt arms around me like I’d never felt before. I felt a peace I had never known, and I had a faith I never expected to have. BUT GOD. It’s so hard to even explain, but it was (and is) so real.

In my experience, there was a song and a scripture that carried me: Travis Greene – “Made a Way” and

Jeremiah 29:11. For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

I cried… but I felt okay.

I reminisced… but I knew that God had a plan for me.

Stronger Together

God brought my husband and me through that difficult time. It’s tough to comprehend, but He did it. It was just a taste of something deeper, and it only made us stronger—together with God, of course.

Living with Purpose

I believe my story is still being written in the best way possible.

Hey, He did it before, with the little faith I had—so I know He can do it again.

Even if there may—or may not—be a baby in my story, I know I have a purpose. I mean, I think God made me a teacher for a reason (lol). I adore children and hoped my daughter would be here with me. But if I can leave a footprint in another child’s life, I know I’ve done my job—not only for me, but for her as well.

Final Encouragement: Keep Trusting God

Therefore, Keep praying and keep having faith.

We may not always understand why, but we’ve got to trust God.

He will never fail or forsake us.

Believe it—I know I do.

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